Well, that theory lasted about 10 minutes. I was good at sports and
even won the coveted best all around athlete in high school one year. Then
something happened… responsibility set in. Yup, it has a way of taking over
where high ideals thought that they had the upper hand. So, I had work to do.
Along with the challenges of small “p” political involvement in school, there
was the work outside, in after school labour at the local grocery store. I spent
about 9 years there through teenage and married life in various levels of the
job. But, I couldn't seem to find the right fit. I entered the business world
and then in the mid 80’s I finally felt called to what Dad identified as, my true life’s
work. Ha! “Dad… couldn't you have said something sooner!”… “No…I knew you
needed to prepare first!” It was like a call to cram for the finals all over
again.
Did I say that I crammed for finals? Well, perhaps I had
better set the record straight on that while I am at it. All that talk about
doing so, was one day dashed to its final end, when a favorite teacher gave an
insight that suited me to a tee! His take was this…"what you accomplish in
cramming is very little… do the work through the year… understand what you read
and are taught, as you go through life, and you will be able to write the
finals without cramming. The night before the finals go out and take in a
movie, go on a date, (like ya… that was gonna happen! LOL) but don’t cram… it
just proves that you can memorize and not necessarily understand the work."
So off I went to university. Still holding to the theory of
my favourite teacher, I held to the task of sitting in the front row, with open
mind and listening ears. I did my work as much in advance as I could while
trying to be there for my wife Karen, bringing up 3 children, starting
immediate part-time pastoral work and doing part-time electrical work to help
augment the cost of university. Oh, did I mention I took 7 courses that first
year. So... they tell me that I made the dean’s list that year… who cared… the
work was just beginning. The funny part was that I was at the same time, on
academic probation because I had not done so well in high school…LOL! Ah yes,
cramming for the finals never worked for me!
If we lived life the way we thought it always worked, what a
stew we would be in. I have friends who I have been praying for down through
the years. They are in the bracket of those who prefer to cram. You know the
type. “I don’t have time now”, or “I am going to but need to find myself first”.
I met a man one day who said, “ The things I have done in life (in times of
war) God could never forgive me for” What he was saying was that he couldn’t
forgive himself. That is sometimes the challenge. But the biggest stumbling
block is the excuse … “not now Lord… I am too busy”, “I will later… I want to live
my own way now… there will be lots of time later on in life”. Like those exams
of old, life tends to bring what we least expect to the table. It seemed every
year that those exams held topics and questions that we had never covered in
class… which of course is the case. We are responsible to read the literature and
understand the themes, concepts and meaning of what is being covered between
the pages. That can be a whole life's work!
So life has its final exam too! Cramming is not good effort
or practice. I am glad that with the finals always before us, we can have the
option of spending our time in constant review, but also more importantly to
take time to rejoice, worship, confess and fellowship with Him who marks the final when
it is examined. Don’t lose track of where you are in the final semester by
leaving it all to the night before… we don’t know when that will night come.
Living on the edge takes constant preparation, but hey… it is all about
enjoying the view from there!